What was the spark behind your poem, “Ark/ee/awl/uh/gee,” that appears in Volume 27?

The spark was an ancient, buried loneliness that hit me while I was at home on an average day. Other disabled people might experience a similar feeling at times—knowing that every day will be a fight for life, and there’s often not a pearl at the end of all the physical and emotional pressure. I think I also rewatched Jurassic Park.

You use a lot of geographical references (“flashed forged rivers/sunken atolls”) within this piece. How did you come up with the idea of equating the body to geographical space?

This was easily the hardest question here because I think I lack the words to pinpoint a time when the body and the land were separated in my mind. My skin shifts like tectonic plates, blisters come and go like severe storms; when I bleed, I am the Mississippi River, remembering.

The ending, “to you know/what it’s like to feel/the pearl under your skin/not even bone can convince/doesn’t exist” is haunting. Can you talk a little about why you chose to end on this note, and what drew you to this particular ending?

There are tiny white balls called milia that grow under the skin inside damaged hair follicles, as I’ve come to understand it. You mostly see them in babies around their eyes and mouths, but they are especially prevalent in people with Epidermolysis Bullosa, and when they’ve been growing out of sight for long enough, they become, almost literally, perfectly hard little pearls that, using a small sewing needle, I can pop out of my skin like spring loaded relief. Often I don’t see the milia, but, like the princess’ pea, I feel something inside me, under the skin, stretching my flesh from the inside, and so I dig, and I dig, probing for the fossil that stops my tool in its tracks, knowing I’ve found the motherlode. Occasionally I’m wrong, and I can’t find the pearl, can’t put to rest the feeling of stranger living under my skin, and I know, like a when I’m writing a poem, that I have to stop before I’m left with a sink full of blood and not much else.

What is the significance of the title broken into syllables? Did the shape of the poem come right away or later in the process of creation?

Two questions in a trench coat! Re: the title—it seemed to echo many of the ideas and images that birthed the poem: the aged layers of dirt that represent times & eras, the idea that geography & time are pre & post language, the different sections of the finger where milia most often live. Once I broke it up phonetically, I also appreciated the words and ideas I was given: the “uh”s and “gee”s of people trying to navigate conversation with disabled people, the sharpness of an awl piercing leathery skin, an ark where loneliness was spiritually mandated out of existence by systemic soulmates. 

Re: the shape—I tell myself, and my students, to stop writing boring poems. To me that doesn’t mean superfluous decoration, but rather a job assigned to me by the poem that I use every technique at my disposal to squeeze all the juice out of the poem. In this case, the shape serves many purposes, all designed to create more echoes bouncing around for the reader to catch. It is hopeful, pointing a way forward out of the loneliness and pain; it is sharp, like the archeological tools I use for my flesh digs; it lies in sections and layers like the millennia of souls I follow as a human and artist.

Do you find yourself circling back to particular themes in your writing?

Skin, politics, family is my go-to answer for what I “write about.” Skin because it has shaped who I am, politics because the radical idea that everyone be allowed a dignified life, that children deserve food, hospitals, all their limbs, is political, and family because it’s an idea I’m still working to understand.

What authors or titles have influenced you as a writer?

Inger Christensen, Monica Berlin, Olio, Spoon River Anthology, Gwendolyn Brooks, Sin Yong-Mok, Emily Oliver, Deborah Keenan, my Uncle Shawn’s life.

What are you working on now?

I am acutely interested in and investigating ways to take poetry from the page and into the world as an active disruptor and connector. Stay tuned.

Also, a book. And my IG: (@)bovinii

(This is unrelated to any question, but if Hamline follows through with the shuttering of their Writing Programs and of this very Water~Stone Review, they will feel the reverberations for generations and likely never will recover spiritually, artistically, academically. Sunset deez.)