In The Field: Conversations With Our Contributors—Kasey Payette
In The Field: Conversations With Our Contributors—Kasey Payette
“We’re Not Weird About It” in Volume 24 is about a young person exploring their sexuality in the space of attending church events. What was the inspiration behind this story? How did it come to be?
“We’re Not Weird About It” is a fictional narrative based on my own experiences with Evangelical and Pentecostal Christianity as a teen. In adulthood, through my writing, I keep returning to those settings because I’m fascinated with the general sense of longing that was so present in those spaces. I have written quite a bit of fiction involving church youth groups, including an in-progress novel manuscript, and I wrote this piece of flash fiction at a time when I was desperate to cut right to the core of what I was trying to say.
Is religion a theme you explore a lot in your writing? Does it show up in work that you like to read?
Absolutely. As a Virgo (hello, astrology-heads!) I often say I have a religious personality, although I am not necessarily a religious person. I am endlessly interested in the systems and narratives we lean on to make sense of our mind-boggling mortality, and the communities and subcultures that form around these narratives. Christianity and its intersections with empire and capitalism is a major factor in our cultural landscape, and as a person who is at least culturally Christian, I feel a huge amount of responsibility to engage with it. In my literary writing, I intentionally try to break religious experiences down to their most sensual, corporeal elements, and let that be the gateway to a broader commentary. As a reader, I definitely seek out religious themes as well. Recently, I particularly enjoyed the cult sub-plot in Louise Erdrich’s novel Plague of Doves. I also like to listen to theology stuff on audiobook (please hit me up with recommendations!) and have been listening to Cynthia Bourgeault’s The Meaning of Mary Magdalene.
So many readers shared with us how they loved that you used collective first-person POV, and yet the quiet distillation of meaning reveals that the speaker uses that as a safety mechanism. Did you try this story in a different POV? What made you decide this one was the right fit?
Great question! I have written other fictional pieces with a similar theme and setting to “We’re Not Weird About It” but using a close third-person POV. When I tried doing flash fiction on this subject matter using the collective first-person, I was delighted by the sudden sense of momentum and breathlessness it offered. In my fiction, I am very interested in exploring ecstatic group experiences—the simultaneous delight and danger in operating as a collective—and in this case, the first-person collective voice (and the switch to first-person singular near the end) was able to do a lot of the heavy lifting to illustrate the layers of safety, meaning, and delusion that group identity can provide.
I’m curious about the use of subtle irony. What made you decide that irony worked and that the point the story is making wasn’t lost for readers?
I tend to use quite a bit of humor and irony in my writing, and I’m now at a point where I trust myself with it. It’s my natural tone, but it still feels risky at times. As with everything I write with the intent to publish, I ran several drafts of this piece past my writing group to make sure it was coming across as I intended.
I was really struck by the line, “Pretty makes sin come easy; pretty saves you, then gives you away.” That line is really telling in what this young speaker is grappling with. I’m wondering if you would be willing to expand on it and fancy us with what your intention was with it.
For people socialized as women, particularly within certain Christian contexts, there’s always this tension between desirability and modesty. As a Christian youth, I remember sometimes wishing I was more conventionally pretty (read: thinner and more feminine—traits I somehow equated with being a better Christian), but also feeling a strange superiority at not having the right body, not having the right clothes. Certain “sins”— partying, drinking, having sex with boys—seemed so out of reach for me at the time that they simply were not a temptation. I could see the risk and danger in being perceived as attractive, and was not sure I wanted that.
How might stories like “We Not Weird About It” help us to explore who we are and the parts of ourselves that we keep hidden? How might more stories like this help readers, maybe even young readers, learn and shape healthy and safe perspectives on sexuality, autonomy, personal rights and freedoms?
This is a big question! I think what I’ll say, as a writer and teacher of writing, is that I think “We’re Not Weird About It” could be used as the basis for a writing prompt: Write a narrative using the first-person collective from the perspective of a group you’ve been a part of where you felt you both fit in and didn’t fit in. Somewhere in the narrative, switch to using first-person singular to say or confess something purely as yourself, possibly using the construction, “Between you and me, I…”
Something I love about this story is that it feels like it could be an essay. There is a grave truth in this story. We were fortunate to publish your essay “Preserves” in Vol. 21. Are you attracted to writing that blends genres or could be considered hybrid?
Especially with flash pieces, the designation of “fiction” or “nonfiction” seems less important to me than the overall impression the narrative has on the reader. I’ve written a few pieces, including “We’re Not Weird About It,” that come close enough to examining my lived experience to count as a personal essay, but are inventive and story-like enough to count as fiction. I honestly haven’t thought much about whether to label my work “hybrid” or “genre-bending,” but I’d like to mull that over more, especially as I approach a point where publishing an essay collection or short story collection might be a real possibility for me.
What do you think a good piece of flash writing needs? Is this a form you write in a lot? Do you have favorite pieces or writers that you love?
I love the short form. I think good flash pieces require urgency, even to the point of desperation. The reader should feel that the author has something to say, and that they need to say it right now. Some of my major influences for flash fiction are Lydia Davis, Amy Hempel, and Lindsay Hunter.
The title of Vol. 24, “Ghost(s) Still Living” comes out of a line from a poem included by Heather A. Warren. Given all that’s occurred in our world in the past few years, what does the idea of “ghosts still living” mean to you?
Oof. I found Heather’s poem deeply affecting, especially in this moment in history. I’m sure I’m not alone in saying I feel like so many parts of my life and identity have died in the past couple of years. Both as a direct result of and set against the backdrop of the global pandemic, racial reckoning sparked by the murder of George Floyd, escalating climate crisis, and on and on, I am not the same person I was in 2019, and I’ll never be that person again. In some ways I feel like a more faded and more tired person waiting to come back to life, like a ghost. It seems like we’re all wandering around as compromised versions of ourselves—ghosts still living. I wish I had something more eloquent to say about this. I wish I had something more hopeful to say about this.
What projects are you working on now?
In theory I am working on my novel manuscript (working title: This Is My Body) which is similar to “We’re Not Weird About It” in setting and theme, but in reality I’ve mostly been writing essays these past couple of years. I’m realizing I’m probably much closer to having an essay collection than I am to having a finished novel.
Kasey Payette is a fiction writer and essayist based in Minneapolis, Minnesota. Her work has appeared in CALYX, Gulf Coast, Juked, Revolver, and Water~Stone Review. Her writing has been supported by the Loft Literary Center’s Mentor Series program and the Minnesota State Arts Board. She is currently at work on her first novel. You can follow her on Instagram @kaseypayette.
In The Field: Conversations With Our Contributors—E.A. Farro
In The Field: Conversations With Our Contributors—E.A. Farro
In your essay from Vol. 24, “Whatever Discomfort, Find Beauty”, the speaker directly addresses the reader during a trip in the Never Summer mountain range in Colorado. Can you tell us about the inspiration behind this piece? How did it come to be?
I spent the first decade of my career as a field geologist. I’d live off-grid in a tent for days or weeks at a time collecting samples to study ancient periods of climate warming. The physical intimacy with the landscape was a kind of poetry. I found things I lost in the city when I went into remote wilderness. My relationship to essays is deeply tied to trying to find a language for those experiences.
Nature is very much a character in this essay. The speaker is interacting with water and sediment, adding and removing layers of clothing depending on the movements of the sun, trying to avoid moose in the wild. Did you take notes on your excursion? Take photos? When you sit down to write and paint a realistic scene like this from memory, what’s your process for writing it to how you remember it?
The first tool I acquired as a geologist was a Rite-in-the-Rain notebook. It was small and yellow and had a waxy feel. Even when I got a rock hammer and an ice ax, it was still my notebook that made me feel most powerful. I used it to record data and the location of lakes we sampled, but I also free-wrote thoughts, poetry, and observations. I rely on those notebooks to transport me back with both their content and the muddy fingerprints. Field work is physical, hard, and repetitive. The memory comes as much from my body as my mind.
One of the aspects from it that our readers loved is how deftly it moves through time. I’m curious—is there an earlier draft of this essay that is longer? Was it difficult to keep it concise without meandering too far from the structure?
This essay is part of a collection my agent is sending out for publication consideration, Fieldnotes from the Anthropocene. I wrote this piece thinking it would merge or expand, but, ultimately, I decided to let it breathe on its own.
Let’s talk about that title! To me it reads like a mantra for seeking deeper meaning to our world. I most connected it to the line “Your life is a blip, a yelp, a fleeting moment out of the thousands of years archived in cores of mud piled up on the platform behind you.” Would you be willing to indulge us and expand on what the title means to you and how you wish for readers to experience it?
As a geologist I exist in two different scales of time, almost like living in parallel worlds. Collecting samples to study changes in climate over thousands of years puts time into perspective. The title is a call to connect with the beauty of landscape and sky and water alongside our immediate human concerns—not to dismiss our human needs, but to remember that we are part of something large and wild.
You’re a climate scientist and you have free zines available on your website. What made you decide to make your work accessible for free, and also, what do you hope for people to know about these zines? What do you hope people will do with them?
In August, my husband had a breakthrough case of COVID and our family quarantined for a long time. I made a stop-motion animation of my zine, Solving Climate Change Together. I mixed Nina Simone’s “Feeling Good” and Glass Animals’ “Heat Wave,” thinking about the music of climate change. This video is the culmination of several pandemic projects.
Early in the pandemic I took awesome free online classes through the Minnesota Center for Book Arts with my kids. Our whole life was taking place at our dining room table, and for a brief period we’d clear away the distance learning and work to create. When it warmed up, I met up outside with a group of artists now organized in zines about warmth by the amazing Karine Rupp Stanko. When I saw a class by Regula Russelle called Zine Making Against Climate Change—I had to take it. Russelle talks about zines as the most democratic form of publishing. Anyone can make and distribute them. That really inspires me.
In my zine Science and Scientist, I humanize the scientific process. In Solving Climate Change Together, I share my takeaway from working in politics that effective policy making needs to braid science with other ways of knowing and other kinds of expertise—I am using the word “braid” as a reference to the powerful book, Braiding Sweetgrass by Dr. Robin Wall Kimmerer.
Who are some of your favorite climate-scientist/eco-lit writers?
I love the Three Body Problem by Liu Cixin – sci-fi about coming in contact with aliens and understanding the physical boundary conditions of life on a planet. It is a page turner packed with academic theory, which I didn’t know was possible. The Little Prince by Antoine Saint-Exupe`ry similarly shows how our spirit is tied to place. Without the fun of aliens, Fugitive Pieces by Anne Michaels has gorgeous exploration of landscape and identity. Ross Gay’s The Book of Delights makes me so aware of my body and my body on the landscape. I want to read it over and over. Refuge by Terry Tempest Williams does an amazing job of moving between the personal and the universal and making clear what is at stake in the level of a lake.
I also love to read field guides. Field guides to ferns, aquatic plants, trees, wildflowers. I keep them by my desk and on my nightstand.
I see the landscape as a character in these books. But, for me, landscape is a character in all books.
What projects are you working on now?
I am working on a novel, Providence Murder Ballad. I grew up in a city full of ghosts. I drank from the fountain cursed by H.P. Lovecraft and visited a loved one in the same psychiatric hospital where his parents died. Walking to my best friend’s, I passed where Edgar Allan Poe lived when he came to court his beloved. Going out on Federal Hill, I passed the Coin O’Matic used by Mob boss Raymond Patriarca to launder money. Providence, my hometown, is a character in the book along with all its ghosts. But at its heart, the book is about the romance, betrayal, and importance of our childhood friendships.
E.A. Farro is a climate scientist who spent several years working in politics. She is the founder of The Nature Library, a literary art installation in St. Paul, Minnesota. Her publications have appeared in The Rumpus, Kenyon Review, and The Normal School, among others. She is a recipient of a 2010 Loft Literary Center Mentor Award and a 2019 Minnesota State Arts Board grant. You can learn more about her work at her website.
In The Field: Conversations With Our Contributors—Kristin Laurel
In The Field: Conversations With Our Contributors—Kristin Laurel
In “Lucas”, your poem from Volume 24, the speaker is taking a bath after witnessing a man receive medical attention from a chest compression device. Can you tell us what inspired this poem? How did it come to be?
Literally, this poem came about after a twenty-four-hour shift as a flight nurse. I wasn’t thinking of all the benefits from a medical perspective, but thinking of the device through a tired poet’s eyes. Plus, something a coworker said when we started using this device years ago “codes sure are controlled and easier now.” Giving chest compressions is hard work, and there’s something about not having the cardio and adrenaline—it makes it less dramatic, and may I daresay less exciting. So for me, therein lies the danger— becoming too detached.
There is a little bit of humor in this poem that diffuses the intensity of witnessing medical trauma. I think the humor always highlights the intimacy in the poem: the speaker bathing, her reflections on desire for a man’s touch. If desire is derived from emotions and environment, in what ways did you mine through your own interiority to convey such a personally-nuanced but universally-shared expression?
Well, I’m glad there was some humor that seeped through despite the content. Truth is, I was probably missing my wife. At the time, we were only spending about six months a year together. She lived in NC and I lived in MN. We did the long-distance deal for over ten years, so longing and desire come naturally for me. Lol. If the LUCAS device was named Lolita or Lucy, it would have been a woman’s touch. I chose to stick with more masculine nouns and pronouns to make the poem less confusing.
I read in another interview that you write a lot from personal experience. There’s this nice NPR article about you in which you discuss compassion fatigue, a concept that may have been unknown to many of us until fairly recently. Does “Lucas” draw upon this concept of compassion fatigue? I’m thinking of how the speaker desires a man’s hands on her chest, not some medical device delivering chest compressions. Do you find that poetry is an outlet for human compassion? How do you wish for your poems to convey connections between humanity? 
Yes, definitely. That’s exactly what I was aiming for. There’s a fine line to compartmentalizing for self-care vs. not caring (burn out). Technology makes it easier to dissociate and we need to be careful. When I was a student nurse over thirty years ago, we were taught massage. Can you imagine that now? I spend more time staring at a computer screen and entering information than I do actual hands-on nursing.
I do think poetry is an outlet for compassion among other things. I’ve turned to poetry in some of the darkest and hardest periods in my life—as both writer and reader. As a reader it’s always a comfort to me to read something that makes me not feel so alone, especially during periods of grief or despair. Poetry can unite us on a deeper level. My old mentor Thomas R. Smith once told me something like “poetry is where our best selves come out.” I’m still looking for my best self, lol, but I’ve written two books with extremely heavy, painful material. The writing act itself was therapeutic, but I felt compelled to put it all out there in hopes it might make a connection and/or help someone else.
One of our readers noted “Lucas” feels timely while we’re still enduring the Covid-19 pandemic, and yet I think the idea of desire for human compassion and decency will resonate with readers well into the future. Can you think of any poems or poets that you’ve read lately whose work feels both poignant now and transcendent of future time?
I wrote Lucas pre-pandemic, so yes, I think the desire for human compassion and decency is a universal and transcendental theme. I think so many poets do this; it would be hard to name just a few. An old poem (with a title that would not be acceptable today) that comes to mind and that definitely resonates with this theme is the poem by the late Alden Nowlan “He Sits Down on the Floor of a School for the Retarded.” The poem describes what it is like going to a group home and giving one of the residents a hug. I especially love the lines:
It’s what we all want, in the end,
to be held, merely to be held,
to be kissed (not necessarily with the lips,
for every touching is a kind of kiss.)
Yet, it’s what we all want, in the end,
not to be worshipped, not to be admired,
not to be famous, not to be feared,
not even to be loved, but simply to be held.
The title of Vol. 24, “Ghost(s) Still Living” comes out of a line from a poem by Heather A. Warren. Given all that’s occurred in our world in the past year or two, what does the idea of “ghosts still living” mean to you?
So many interpretations for this. And wow, that is a great poem “What Wounds Become” by Warren. For me, what comes to mind is grief. I wrote about the ghosts of my nephews after they died. As a poet, I carry the dead with me per se. My dead are my ghosts. They show up in my imagination, my psyche, dreams, or even as memory. After the last two years, there’s been a collective grief that’s almost palpable. Warren’s poem hints at (via my interpretation) “ghosts still living” inside of us.
What does your writing process look like? Are you still working as a nurse, and if so, has Covid changed your writing process? Is Covid providing new material for you to work with?
Pre-Covid, and pre-move to NC, I had structure and a writing group. I was disciplined and also very task-driven to complete a manuscript for the writing program I was in, and then another to honor the death of my nephews. I guess my process is obsession driven. I have a thought or idea (usually from an experience) and then set out to experiment on paper. I have been working as an ER nurse seasonally and now as a travel nurse. Covid has changed my writing process, I think. Why not? Blame it all on Covid. –When I’m on assignment it is draining and all-consuming. I find that when I am off work, I have this “ I need to fill up” mentality. Spending time with my loved ones and outdoors has taken priority. Writing, at times, feels like work, especially, writing about nursing or working with Covid patients. Covid has given me material, along with travel nursing. I’ve scribbled away at stuff in my journal to jog a memory here or there to come back to it later, but I haven’t written a work poem in over two years.
What projects are you working on now?
I’ve really been trying to write lighter stuff—which hasn’t been working out so great, at least on a prolific level. I’ve been consciously trying to be more mindful and grateful, and writing more poems inspired by the natural world. I’ve been working on a poem for my grandson for a few months. I’ve been trying to finish a short story for fifteen years. I’ve been dabbling and composing. Slowing myself down and enjoying the little things. Maybe that’s the one good thing that Covid has changed for us all.
Kristin Laurel has been employed as a nurse for over thirty years. She owes her passion for poetry to The Loft Literary Center, where she completed a two-year apprenticeship. Her poetry and essays have been published in CALYX, Chautauqua, Gravel, The Raleigh Review, The Portland Review, and others, and have been featured on NPR. She is the author of Giving Them All Away (Evening Street Press) and Questions About the Ride (Main Street Rag). She and her spouse divide their time between the 10,000 lakes of Minnesota and the Appalachian Mountains of western North Carolina. You can learn more about her and her work at her website.
In The Field: Conversations With Our Contributors—Pamela R. Fletcher Bush
In The Field: Conversations With Our Contributors—Pamela R. Fletcher Bush
Your memoir essay “The Complexion of Love” in Vol. 24 recounts a pivotal moment when the young narrator Renny is confronted with racism by the white kids she’s attracted to, and then feels compelled to stay silent about it. Can you tell us a bit about how this essay came to be? What inspired you to write it?
“The Complexion of Love” is included in a larger work that I’ve written and have revised over many years. Overall, the work is an account of the interior world of a young girl who becomes increasingly aware of both her mental and physical landscapes. Renny gathers and sifts through information about the fascinating racially constructed and racially constrained society enveloping her mind and her relationships. Living in the white dominant environment of La Puente, California (a suburb of Los Angeles), how does this racialized society impinge upon her friendships? Can interracial friendships survive? These questions intrigue me, because, as we know, friendship is vital to children. A sense of acceptance and belonging inside and outside our homes shape the evolution of ourselves. Antagonism and rejection based on something we cannot control or change about ourselves, like our skin complexion, is harmful and haunting.
In this story Renny, who is eight years old, encounters a lack of acceptance and belonging when she becomes attracted to Calvin, a white classmate. During this time, she also becomes aware of the taboo of interracial love when her best friend BK, a white girl, tells her, “You should stick to your own kind.” Although Renny becomes confused and upset upon hearing about this societal rule, she learns to keep her objection to herself and to be quiet about her romantic feelings for Calvin.
To her horror, however, when Calvin and his friends deride her after she attempts to befriend them, she attacks Calvin and beats him to the ground. His rejection and racial derision is hard for Renny to endure, but after the incident, she remains naively optimistic.
I wrote this piece because I hadn’t read stories about the unique experiences of young Black girls living in white dominant suburbs. While racism often connects these girls’ experiences to the overall American “Black” experience, their lives, the nuances of their situations, differ due to the setting in which they live. I’d venture to say that Black girls who grew up in similar places in the 1960s, such as the metropolitan areas of the Twin Cities, probably would have experienced situations like those that Renny experienced.
You have a new essay published called “Summer 1964” in the anthology We Are Meant to Rise: Voices for Justice from Minneapolis to the World. That essay also features the same neighbor girls young Renny played with. But while these two essays have overlapping characters and some similar themes, they are distinctly different in tone and form. Did you write them around the same time? What was it like to write these two essays and keep them separate from each other?
The two pieces were written during different periods, though “Summer 1964” was written first. It’s also included in that larger work I mentioned previously. Renny’s and BK’s friendship is inextricably woven in the fabric of Renny’s young life. BK and her family are the first white people Renny meets who appear to genuinely accept and respect her. Over time, BK proves herself trustworthy, leading Renny to consider BK her sister, so their relationship becomes central to Renny’s sense of self. Until…
The tone and form of this story differ because Renny’s halcyon days are numbered. In her mind, the pieces of the puzzle begin to fit. Her innocence becomes shattered when BK shuns her to avoid the ridicule of some new white friends. Leading up to that moment, Renny encounters the criticism of her colored friends (the respectful term used for Black people at the time), who are suspicious of white people. These playmates question Renny’s loyalty, causing her to wonder why skin color is such a big deal.
Given Renny’s evolving state of mind during that year, it wasn’t difficult to keep the two stories separate from each other.
One thing that stood out to me in both, that I feel you expertly crafted, was how young Renny saw the world. In “Complexion of Love” we spend almost the entire essay in one scene, whereas in “Summer 1964”, we travel with Renny through multiple spaces over the course of a season. She really comes at her “aha moments” from a different approach. How can memoirists use writing elements like time, location, setting, or scene to flesh out these interior spaces for their younger selves?
I love this question about craft! I’m glad you detected what I’m up to in these two pieces that are part of a book I’m writing. The pivotal time of 1964 and the location of La Puente in these stories coincide with the racially divided world Renny grapples with in her mind. When recalling the past in a memoir, fleshing out the exact and necessary details of the setting (e.g., time and location) is crucial in rendering the meaning of the situations and circumstances of the story. Depicting the setting just so helps to portray the attitudes, culture, customs, traditions, etc. of a place that somehow influences the characters’ thoughts and actions.
As I alluded to earlier, in “Complexion of Love,” Renny is at an age where she’s beginning to contemplate love in a naïve, refreshing way. Bianca, BK’s eldest sister, disrupts this contemplation when she broaches the subject of interracial love with Renny. Surprised and speechless, Renny doesn’t have the experience or the language to express her thoughts about something she didn’t know existed. Like many young girls at that time, she has a crush on Paul McCartney of The Beatles. She doesn’t consider his skin color; she perceives him as just a cute guy in a new band playing the guitar on the Ed Sullivan show.
Meanwhile, as the days of 1964 pass, the hot water of racial politics comes to a rapid boil, given the Civil Rights Act of 1964 banning public racial segregation. In the background—or in the foreground, depending on where you are—people in several New York cities are rebelling against racial injustice. The news coverage is ripe with social protest and political conflict, but Renny isn’t directly impacted by these events; she lives in a Southern California suburb, not in the south or on the east coast. Yet, in her small world, she begins experiencing personal fallout among her friends. Relating the specific details of these social and political occurrences are meant to reflect the swift change happening in both society and in Renny’s mind.
We know that memory is a challenging place to write from. What is it like for you to revisit your childhood when you’re writing? You paint such lovely and detailed scenes with just the right amount of description; how did you recall sights and sounds? What was your creative process like while mining your childhood memories?
Memory is a fascinating thing. I had totally forgotten about the situations and events of my young life that had involved BK and her family. When I got to junior high school, I moved on, as BK and I went our separate ways, becoming racially segregated in our new social circles. I think my mind kept the memory locked in a safe until it was time to release it. Then, one day out of the blue, decades later, the memory of that day when I no longer considered BK my friend, my sister rushed into the forefront of my mind. So I plopped myself down at my desk and wrote the story in one sitting.
I kept no journal of that time, though I sketched a lot and wrote many poems and short stories. Nonetheless, I recalled the vivid details of situations, facial expressions, spoken words, the music we listened and danced to, our houses and yards, my thoughts, and my emotions. And as I wrote, I wept. Although it was painful to recall some of those times, I was glad that I had retrieved a part of myself that I had banished. Following the writing of “Summer 1964,” a few years later after attending a family reunion, I became interested in my parents’ young lives. I began writing an account of the intersection between their experiences and my own childhood. I wrote quick episodes. It was a wonderful exercise because I realized that the home of my youth had such a strange and huge impact on my life. I suppose that’s the case for everyone.
In January 2020, you took over as the new Executive Director of Saint Paul Almanac. Can you share with us any literary-arts initiatives that you’re pursuing in your role? 
Thank you for asking about my work at Saint Paul Almanac! Currently, we have a lot of literary-arts projects in the hopper. We’re collaborating with the University of Saint Thomas on an important initiative, “The Power of Storytelling for Environmental Justice in Our Communities” to sponsor a community storytelling contest that seeks to bring awareness and storytelling around the theme of environmental justice. The call of submissions will occur by February 15 and the judging will happen in April. We’ll have a public celebration of the contest recipients in May. The contests will offer prizes to the top submissions.
Also in February, Saint Paul Almanac will hold a writing contest featuring poetry, flash fiction, and flash creative nonfiction focusing on the theme, BREAK THROUGH. The submissions are due on February 28 and the recipients of the three categories will be announced by the end of March. The contests will offer prizes to the top submissions.
For April, we’re planning our second annual Global Poetry Celebration on Earth Day, which will feature participants reading poetry in at least 20 languages. Last year, participants read poetry in 21 languages; two participants from Albania and India, who found us via Facebook, contributed to the reading, and attendees joined our event from around the country.
In October, we’re eagerly anticipating the launch of Volume 13 of our anthology, The Almanac.
I invite everyone to visit our website and social media platforms to keep up with our exciting endeavors.
What projects of your own are you working on now?
I’m wrapping up the work that includes “Complexion of Love” and “Summer of 1964.” I’m also writing another account of my life, but it’ll be focused on the latter years of my life.
Pamela R. Fletcher Bush is professor emerita of English (St. Catherine University) and a widely published writer in various genres, having won literary awards and fellowships for creative nonfiction, arts criticism, and poetry (Loft Literary Center, Minnesota State Arts Board, Pan African Literary Forum at the New School, and St. Catherine University, among others). She’s also an editor, whose works include Blues Vision: African American Writing from Minnesota (Minnesota Historical Society Press); The Way We See It: A Fresh Look at Vision Loss (Arcata Press); Saint Paul Almanac (Arcata Press); and Transforming a Rape Culture (Milkweed Editions). She is the executive director of the Saint Paul Almanac.
In The Field: Conversations With Our Contributors—Darryl Holmes
In The Field: Conversations With Our Contributors—Darryl Holmes
Your poem in Vol. 24 “The Persistence of Memory” uses Salvador Dalí’s 1931 surrealistic painting (of the same name). Can you speak to the inspiration behind this poem? How did it come to be?
I went back to get my MFA late in life because I needed something to restore my faith in my ability to write. During one of our residencies, I was fortunate enough to be introduced to ekphrastic poetry. I guess I didn’t pay enough attention many decades ago as a young, African-American undergrad in Creative Writing when Keats’ “Ode on a Grecian Urn” was being discussed. In the workshop, prints of famous artists were spread throughout the room. I was drawn to a 19th century French-artist Edouard Manet’s painting; interestingly enough it was a painting of his more well-known contemporary, Claude Monet, and his family. Claude’s wife Camille is the focal point of Manet’s rendering, and something about her sitting in the center of the garden in the lush green grass, with her chin resting quietly on her fist and the bottom of her pearl-white dress spread out like a fan, really struck me. The painting is called “The Monet Family in Their Garden at Argenteuil”, and I began to write about it. Since then, I’ve begun to look at art a bit differently, not just for appreciation, but for inspiration as well.
My heart sank when my son first sent me the photo. It seemed so surreal, him being in a prison cell, something I never expected but was waiting for as a father of three Black sons. In the poem I say “it took me moments to remember what day it was…” In truth it took me months to shake the thought of him being there until the emergence of the poem began to take hold. His face like the melted watches emerged as a rich simile. The Dali connection felt so clear: the surreal experience of time melting for me; melting for my son; his life possibly melting away forever…and the title of the painting seemed so apropos for the poem. The memory of my son in a prison cell truly was persistent.
Is there a medium of art that you particularly like? Does it work in tandem with your poetry?
I hope I’m interpreting your question correctly in considering “medium” in the broader sense of the type of art as opposed to the artistic material. I love traditional Jazz, and the two branches of the visual arts I’m most drawn to are paintings and sculptures. With paintings I’ve grown to lean more towards African-inspired themes and abstracts, but anything I can get lost in or look at over the course of multiple viewings and still feel something mystical or see something unpredictable is what does it for me. It is why I love listening to the greats of Jazz. I seem to hear something I hadn’t heard before or think about something different each time I experience a particular composition. Also, many years ago at an African Street Festival in Brooklyn, NY, I fell in love with Shona stone sculpture from Zimbabwe. The intricacy of the carvings, the juxtaposition of rough and polished stone in a singular piece, and the power of the medium’s density command an emotional experience.
The question of whether my affinity for art works in tandem with the creation of my poetry is an intriguing one. More often I tend to work and read in silence, so thoughts and music are invited to come through without me being plugged in. I often feel that if I plug into enough inspiration and stay open to enough of the world when I’m not writing, I may find the gift of the inspiration when I am writing coming through. For example, over a two-year period in an earlier time in my life, I listened to Charlie Parker’s music at some point of every day. I never missed a day, and yet I never actually wrote while I was listening to his music. It is impossible that it didn’t become a part of me. The same is true for the ekphrastic experience, but in this case I’ve actually experimented with it more directly to drive my creativity. Most recently it was a black and white photo of my grandfather on my father’s side. He died when my father was 13. My father is alive and just recently turned 100.
Who are some artists or works of art that you admire, and why do you like them?
Charlie Parker, Miles Davis and John Coltrane are the musical headliners for me, but I’ve been captivated by so many of the great established and aspiring artists I’ve come across over the years. Jazz forces me to think deeply. When I was introduced to Coltrane in my early twenties, I was initially intimidated by his music. It seemed too intellectually superior for me if that makes sense; but I hung in until I could hear him, and he opened up a space quite wondrous in me. I’ve always felt to some degree that I was born a few decades too late.
When it comes to the visual arts, it would be disingenuous to say I’m familiar enough with many of the past and contemporary greats to have an informed and honest opinion of the works of art I admire. Interestingly enough, when I think about the ekphrastic connection, I was introduced to the experience of Monet’s famous Water Lilies paintings through a poem of the same name by the esteemed African-American poet, Robert Hayden. In my home, most of the original paintings that dominate our walls are from gifted artists I met at street festivals or local galleries. Leslie Floyd is one of my favorites. He lives in the next town over from me in New Jersey. Not surprisingly, I’m particularly drawn to his musical pieces. When he’s at his best, the emotion he builds into the canvas comes out of the subject’s soul. I’m also fortunate to own a few pieces by the Jamaican painter, Paul Blackwood. His abstract art is quite jarring and colorful. I’m drawn to their work and artists like them because emotion in poetry is so important to me. I want the words of a poem to stay with me like the density of Shona stone.
The element of fire is heavily portrayed in your poem, from Dalí’s melted clocks, to the melting of identity and lineage, to the blacksmithing techniques used to forge the metal bars of prison cells. There’s a deliberate use of imagistic craft at work here. What are your intentions with language and word choice while writing?
My intentions with language are to keep my word choices simple (for the most part) and to create a level of complexity through craft; either through the right choice and placement of individual words in a line; through the arrangement of lines in a stanza; or in the arrangement and sequence of the stanzas themselves. Imagery in a sense is everything for me. It drives my poetry’s emotional core when I’m successful. I grew up heavily digesting the atrocities that have been committed against Native-American and African-American people. Fire has often been used as a destructive force to control or erase our existence; from firearms used to kill and contain us when we were captured; to burnings following the savagery of lynching; to the leveling of black lives and property across the charred-span of 35 city-blocks in a place known at the time in Oklahoma as “Black Wall Street.” Yet we are still here and making our way cautiously. James Baldwin wrote The Fire Next Time. Richard Wright had Bigger Thomas put Mary in a furnace. I have vicariously become a part of a rich and painful experience, and I’ve come to realize that my poetry has no choice but to speak to this in some way or form. Sound remains important to me as well, so I find myself often working to balance the weight of assonance and alliteration in my work as I grapple with being the conduit for the right imagery. Lastly, I really appreciate your observation about the prison bars and how they play into the theme of fire. I wish I could say it was intentional on my part, because the prison cell was the impetus for the poem, but sometimes it simply comes down to having the patience not to force things.
Time is also a featured element here, though on the surface, it might be overlooked upon the first read. (I’m saying this because I actually didn’t notice it immediately!) But I love how each stanza has movement—past tense, present tense, a historical lens—which beautifully leans into Dalí’s distortion of space and time. I’m so curious how you envisioned the structure of your poem; can you talk a little about writing and revising until you locked each stanza in place?
Time is essential to the strength of the poem, particularly because of the placement of the third stanza. We experimented a lot with disrupting our poems in grad school; playing a lot of what if scenarios. Sometimes scrambling things just to see if the change in arrangement elevated or detracted from the poem’s strength. I must say it was an uncomfortable experience in the beginning, but it really drove home the point that the process of revision is equally as important as the process of writing. Sometimes we are simply too close to our own work and others can often help us to see something we are missing. What I learned in my own growth in order to work more effectively outside of an academic setting or shared environment like a workshop is that a disruption process as a regular exercise can actually serve to free a writer up. Nothing becomes sacred until it truly feels right.
I have to extend my sincere appreciation and give all of the credit to contributing editor Sean Hill and the editorial staff for seeing a greater possibility in this poem than what the original arrangement I submitted was achieving. I know how rare it is for a writer to receive a note from the editor with an offer to rearrange and resubmit a single poem for consideration when there are already an overwhelming number of submissions for a literary journal under review. I am grateful for the opportunity Water-Stone Review gave me: a one week extension to re-work and re-submit the poem with the ultimate goal of strengthening its tension by staying in the past even after the tension is apparently broken. I began to disrupt the poem even further, and found out that the movement of the second stanza into the third position was the prize that I was looking for; provided I could find the right language to replace what now was missing. Fortunately, I pulled it off. Even after the son’s reveal with “his spool of emojis” in his follow-up text, the father in the third stanza is still in the past struggling to regain his footing.
I feel like writers, particularly in poetry and nonfiction, are always grappling with the issues of memory—its accuracy, its nonlinearity, its literary representation. One of the reasons I love your poem is the satisfaction from the surprises memories and images deliver to the reader. What are some ways you mine your memory for truth, for inspiration, for clarity?
You raise an interesting question here. I’m not sure if I have a good answer because I’m not sure if it’s a conscious process for me. Where does memory stop and imagination begin? Perhaps that is part of the struggle, like grappling with the accuracy of a poem when its emotional core feels abundantly clear. Yet, I do believe that starting from a point of truth is crucial. I could not write about lemons authentically if I never tasted them, even if I had memories of a lemon tree growing up in my backyard. I have to be emotionally invested. I have to hear the voices calling; connecting me to a spark, whether it’s from my personal experiences or from owning the responsibility of being an honest caretaker of someone else’s memories. In the case of this poem, it emerged from the truth that Black parents live with every day, especially as it relates to our sons. We have persistent feelings about something going wrong because of the myriad of tragedies locked in our memories. A sense of buckling becomes a part of our daily breathing… I’m glad you brought up the point of nonlinearity. I’m a movie junkie, and I’m also vulnerable to the appeal of a good streaming series. I guess you can call it one of my vices in life. I’m fascinated by script writers who effectively move forward and backwards and backwards and forward across time to create a level of intrigue and tension in a story. Ironically, I tend to be too linear in my approach to writing, so it’s important that I remind myself to step back and experiment after I think a particular piece is done. The story of how this poem came to be accepted for this issue of Water-Stone Review is a wonderful reminder of that for me!
The title of Vol. 24, “Ghost(s) Still Living” comes out of a line from a poem included by Heather A. Warren. Given all that’s occurred in our world in the past year or two, what does the idea of “ghosts still living” mean to you?
I should start by saying I love the space and rhythm in Heather’s poem; the musicality and mystery they weave, so it was not surprising for me to learn they are also a percussionist.
I guess the simple answer to your question is that I feel I owe everything to my parents and our ancestors who came before us, so the ghosts I most want to embrace are healing. My mom transitioned several years ago at the age of 90, but she still comes back to visit my father and younger sister. I’ve been working on a poem for her that I have yet to finish. It opens with the following lines: When my mother surrendered to a stroke at 90/we buried her stillness/still she comes to visit my sister at night/sometimes to lay a hand beneath my father’s hair/it is soft and light, lifting to her touch like smoke… Often in my moments of deep reflection I find myself connecting to a song by Gil Scott Heron and Brian Jackson called “95 South.” It’s from an album entitled Bridges, and the song is both a tribute to those who came before us and a promise that we owe it to them to carry on. However, I do understand the other side, and the truth is we all have scars, and the events of the past few years have only served to exacerbate them. Sometimes they manifest as “ghosts(s) still living” that grip and inform our writing. Or, as Heather poignantly suggests by the title of their poem, they are “What Wounds Become.”
What projects are you working on now?
I honestly don’t have a regular writing process right now. I have every intention of getting back to one when I retire in the next year from the rigor of corporate life. I envision devoting time to my writing daily once I’m there. For now, I continue to read enough to keep ideas flowing for my writing, and I often use my journal and iPhone recorder to capture the sparks that could turn into something special. I’m also working on additional revisions to a manuscript of poetry entitled Reasons For Water, and I continue to look for opportunities to submit individual work to literary publications from time to time like Water-Stone Review.
Darryl Holmes received his MFA from Fairleigh Dickinson University, where he also served as an editorial reader for the university’s international journal of contemporary writing, The Literary Review. He has new work out or forthcoming in African American Review, Jelly Bucket, Kind Writers, the New York Quarterly, Obsidian, and Toho Journal. His first collection of poetry, Wings Will Not Be Broken, was published by Third World Press.
